I mean, do you want to see? [ she's got on her red robes, but he can probably see her whole left hand is bandaged, her right arm is also covered, and she has a huge bruise on her forehead. that's what he can see, at least. ] I don't know how I didn't die, actually. I think, uh. I think Blanca stitched me?
[ . . . . wow, he hates this. a lot. there's a deep frown on his face.]
.... Ochako should still have one use for her healing gun. Tomorrow, after trial, see if she would be willing to use it on you. At the very least, it ought to be used on someone whose injuries are severe.
I've been worse off. One time a shark nearly bit me in half. It was rad. [ lup ]
Anyway, I'm not going to beg for heals. I have some dignity. And depending on how trial goes, it might not matter. You never know when I'm going to be scapegoated.
[ careful is appreciated. she keeps letting out unintentional harsh breaths when she moves too quickly. ]
I don't know if it does either, especially because I'm still not clear what happened to her. [ she makes a frustrated noise. ] I feel like it - no matter how many fucking times I know things, it doesn't seem to matter where it counts.
Just for today... I think - I can admit that I am not.
[and maybe that slight, barely there admission that even after everything he's been through - dying twice, surviving a third attempt on his life, being stabbed in the heart, losing friends, making difficult choices - this....
this is perhaps the worst of it.
he doesn't really pray - but if he did, then he would pray that this is the worst of it.]
[ she shifts, doing her best to not make noise when she does it. ]
Well. For today, you don't have to be anything at all if you don't want. [ she tells him, hugging him to her. ] For today you don't have to think about recovery.
Be selfish for a sec and put the needs of the many aside. I'm giving you permission.
[and he means that quite sincerely - how does he say these things without irony? but it really seems like if you asked him to name one of lup's flaws, you might be waiting upwards of three hours.
even as she tugs on his braid.]
.... but even if you ask me to try, I'm afraid I'm not sure what I would do. I think I was selfish enough to ask for time alone.
[when he was sure that people would be looking for him.]
[ she sighs, rolling her eyes, but she doesn't argue so much as just go: ]
You're going to break under all that self-sacrifice.
[ sniff. ] How about you make up for it then, and lay here with me for a while so I don't have to be cold and miserable and in pain by myself for a few hours.
in truth - he doesn't think that he will. even if it's foggy, and hard for him to remember what he'd done in the past.... it feels like - this is something familiar to him. like this weight is something he's used to carrying.
so perhaps it's just easy for him to agree - ]
Mm, then I'll be happy to. Do you want me to get you anything else?
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[and it actually doesn't hurt enough for him to really pause about it anymore! but he'll carry her over to her room anyway.
there's just a soft huff at that.]
Is that so...? They saw to your injuries, didn't they? I'm glad you're alright.
[since he had to like
scoop up jeanne and then yeet them both out of there]
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[ she sounds just - a tad pouty, but it's fine. ]
Have any requests?
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[HE DIDN'T EVEN
REALIZE THE EXTENT OF HIS INJURIES, HE SUDDENLY SOUNDS QUITE WORRIED]
Erm - your favorite? But - your injuries....
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she snorts. ]
I mean, do you want to see? [ she's got on her red robes, but he can probably see her whole left hand is bandaged, her right arm is also covered, and she has a huge bruise on her forehead. that's what he can see, at least. ] I don't know how I didn't die, actually. I think, uh. I think Blanca stitched me?
It's probably fine.
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.... Ochako should still have one use for her healing gun. Tomorrow, after trial, see if she would be willing to use it on you. At the very least, it ought to be used on someone whose injuries are severe.
[and
yes.
he would call lup's injuries quite severe]
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I've been worse off. One time a shark nearly bit me in half. It was rad. [ lup ]
Anyway, I'm not going to beg for heals. I have some dignity. And depending on how trial goes, it might not matter. You never know when I'm going to be scapegoated.
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gets him to also tense for a bit, holding onto her a bit more closely even as they approach her room.
and then, decisively:]
You won't.
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[ she digs her phs out of her pocket to let them in. ]
We'll see. If we can't figure out who done did it, I'm going to have to fight Archer for it anyway, and he'll win, because he's a horse.
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but.]
.... the plan tomorrow is -
Please follow the most obvious lead.
And do not let it go.
We will be able to figure out who did it.
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I know the plan, for sure. [ sniff. ] Don't worry.
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Then please don't suggest you'll be voted for again.
[he truly feels as though he can only take so much this weekend]
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[ she says this so casually. ]
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.... you've already been told about what happened last night - before we were all struck to go to sleep?
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[ she pauses, and tugs him a little closer, wrapping an arm around him again. ]
I... don't even know what to say about it.
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.... My guess is that it may be something similar to what happened to Hikaru.
But I don't know if that tells us enough.
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I don't know if it does either, especially because I'm still not clear what happened to her. [ she makes a frustrated noise. ] I feel like it - no matter how many fucking times I know things, it doesn't seem to matter where it counts.
[ a little bitter laugh. ] Anyway.
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.... we can make it count.
In the end, all of it will be able to count. I know that you're frustrated and - I understand, I do.
.... but all your effort does matter.
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I know. I'm just pouting. [ ... ] Are you okay? And here's a challenge: no I'm fines.
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Just for today... I think - I can admit that I am not.
[and maybe that slight, barely there admission that even after everything he's been through - dying twice, surviving a third attempt on his life, being stabbed in the heart, losing friends, making difficult choices - this....
this is perhaps the worst of it.
he doesn't really pray - but if he did, then he would pray that this is the worst of it.]
.... but I will recover.
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[ she shifts, doing her best to not make noise when she does it. ]
Well. For today, you don't have to be anything at all if you don't want. [ she tells him, hugging him to her. ] For today you don't have to think about recovery.
Be selfish for a sec and put the needs of the many aside. I'm giving you permission.
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somewhere between sheepish, touched, and embarrassed.]
.... you might be asking a bit much of me.
[because he understands the sentiment - he does.
. . .
but he's never been selfish a day in his life.
it's hard, to suddenly ask him to try, when the concept itself feels so hard for him to reach.]
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Do not. Look, I know I have more than enough character flaws for the both of us, Bougie, but I'm sharing some with you! Take them off my hands.
[ she tugs his braid. ] You can have some selfishness. It's fresh. I am the farmer's market.
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[and he means that quite sincerely - how does he say these things without irony? but it really seems like if you asked him to name one of lup's flaws, you might be waiting upwards of three hours.
even as she tugs on his braid.]
.... but even if you ask me to try, I'm afraid I'm not sure what I would do. I think I was selfish enough to ask for time alone.
[when he was sure that people would be looking for him.]
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You're going to break under all that self-sacrifice.
[ sniff. ] How about you make up for it then, and lay here with me for a while so I don't have to be cold and miserable and in pain by myself for a few hours.
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in truth - he doesn't think that he will. even if it's foggy, and hard for him to remember what he'd done in the past.... it feels like - this is something familiar to him. like this weight is something he's used to carrying.
so perhaps it's just easy for him to agree - ]
Mm, then I'll be happy to. Do you want me to get you anything else?
[tea? a snack?]
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