in truth - he doesn't think that he will. even if it's foggy, and hard for him to remember what he'd done in the past.... it feels like - this is something familiar to him. like this weight is something he's used to carrying.
so perhaps it's just easy for him to agree - ]
Mm, then I'll be happy to. Do you want me to get you anything else?
[then if that's what she wants, he has no reason to disagree. his own movements are a little gingerly, but then he'll go to lay down next to her easily enough, settling himself in to face her.
it's a little bit of a funny thing - because the last person who mattered so much to him, that he could think to share a bed with was... well. yona. when they were growing up.
and it's strange, because it's hard to teach a person how to be selfish when they don't know what they'd ask for if you gave them the opportunity.
yet as he settles in with her then, soo-won thinks about what he'd told her weeks before -
if this was all the time that they had together, then it would be enough.
maybe this is what selfish looks like, for him. to be with the people he loves, without having to worry about anything else.]
[ he settles in, and she reaches to take his hand and hold onto it.
she's not used to trying to be a pillar for anybody. nobody but taako. and she's a little out of practice with the one on one part of it - with learning how to help individuals instead of the many. it's been a long time since she could allow herself to. you meet people you know are going to die, every year for a hundred years, and you stop caring. you stop learning math - because everybody does math differently on all these different worlds, so why bother? it doesn't matter. it'll be gone at the end.
all that mattered was taako. her constant.
but there are constants here, too. and she wants to give them what they deserve. she's figuring it out, or... trying to. someone to take strength from.
she thinks maybe soo-won gets too caught up in trying to offer his own. so. ]
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in truth - he doesn't think that he will. even if it's foggy, and hard for him to remember what he'd done in the past.... it feels like - this is something familiar to him. like this weight is something he's used to carrying.
so perhaps it's just easy for him to agree - ]
Mm, then I'll be happy to. Do you want me to get you anything else?
[tea? a snack?]
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[ for as much as she says she's selfish - she won't be, here. she doesn't need to ask anything of him other than to just be here.
she won't leave. and she won't ask him to give more of himself, even if he's willing to give.
instead, she lets go of him and then lays down on the bed, patting the pillow next to her. ]
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it's a little bit of a funny thing - because the last person who mattered so much to him, that he could think to share a bed with was... well. yona. when they were growing up.
and it's strange, because it's hard to teach a person how to be selfish when they don't know what they'd ask for if you gave them the opportunity.
yet as he settles in with her then, soo-won thinks about what he'd told her weeks before -
if this was all the time that they had together, then it would be enough.
maybe this is what selfish looks like, for him. to be with the people he loves, without having to worry about anything else.]
.... Ru. Thank you.
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she's not used to trying to be a pillar for anybody. nobody but taako. and she's a little out of practice with the one on one part of it - with learning how to help individuals instead of the many. it's been a long time since she could allow herself to. you meet people you know are going to die, every year for a hundred years, and you stop caring. you stop learning math - because everybody does math differently on all these different worlds, so why bother? it doesn't matter. it'll be gone at the end.
all that mattered was taako. her constant.
but there are constants here, too. and she wants to give them what they deserve. she's figuring it out, or... trying to. someone to take strength from.
she thinks maybe soo-won gets too caught up in trying to offer his own. so. ]
You're welcome, Soo-won.