[ . . . . if he was in a better mood, he'd ask if she's sure that's not just the RSVP but.
instead he just looks down at the tea and has a sip.]
.... I've known for about a week. When I said to trust me... it was because I knew she would lead us all to her. Taako took care of the accusations for me, even if he didn't want to.
When we discovered Shigeo, I thought we might be able to search for a killer that wasn't any of us but... even if we found them, I don't know if they would be as willing to give themselves up as Jeanne.
[no, they - probably wouldn't.
not with how easy jeanne brought the accusation upon herself]
[ she doesn't respond with any accusations or disbelief. just a little nod. ]
Yeah, I... realized pretty quickly.
[ judging from the trial, she thinks a lot of people knew; it feels like everyone converged on the same answer. whether they learned it ahead of time, or simply went with the crowd—jeanne unified them. ]
Whoever killed Shigeo... they probably couldn't confess either. And I don't think anyone had the heart to find them, anyway.
[ she blows gently against her tea for a moment in thought. ]
I couldn't confess today, to Yona. [ and she didn't technically land the killing blow ] So it wouldn't surprise me if that was the case...
[ was it really splintering? was hikaru's case worse than mob's? the symptoms present themselves differently enough between individuals that it's so hard to say. ]
She might not be able to tell you anything... but when you speak to Rabbit tomorrow, once your icon blinks.... ask if there is anything you can do to learn about the 'Pawn'.
It appears to be stumping those with roles and abilities. I'm looking now too.... but I'm not sure what to make of it.
Hikaru definitively wasn't splintering... but I'm afraid that now I'll have to inquire whether Shigeo was.
[ ...the idea that they're going to have to wake up, go to execution, and just keep doing this exhausts her, bone-deep. but she nods anyway. ]
Okay... I'll ask her. She said she didn't notice anything with Mob, though—even when I brought up Hikaru, she didn't seem to know if he was a related case. [ maybe she'll know more now that trial's over. ] We'll have to have everyone ask their leaders about it.
You've met all the other roles, right?
[ she doesn't know them, or Pawn, but she'll ask. ]
No.... I'm only familiar with the fact that they are gathering, and lucky that they entrust information to me every now and then.
I do not know if finding this Pawn is the key to solving more of our mysteries or generating nova... but it is an outstanding problem that we're hoping to resolve.
[ . . . . . . he can hear the tiredness from her and - well, he reaches out to gently lay a hand on her wrist]
.... Rest tonight.
And what you can of tomorrow morning, too. A long, luxurious soak in the bath.... and if I'm feeling well enough, I'll bring you breakfast and tea in the morning.
[ they don't act very close in public, but even these little, passing touches and words mean a lot to her. her hand rests against his, a fluttering touch. ]
That sounds great.
[ she doubts it'll happen. ]
...You know you don't have to push yourself around me, right? I think we've both seen each other at our worst.
[ she's not going to pressure him to bear his heart, but he doesn't have to hide it from her, either. he can relax and be tired, sad—whatever. ]
[ . . . . there's just a soft noise of amusement at that, even as he lets his hand rest with hers.]
.... I must have been dealt quite a hand - for all of you to be assuring me of the same thing this weekend.
[that he doesn't have to push himself, and that it's alright if he's not okay]
.... I am saddened. I believe it would be disingenuous to suggest that I am not, given all that we've lost.
[even... all that he's lost, specifically]
But I'm afraid that I'm unsure how to admit to more than that.
[he won't cry or scream or yell to show his displeasure - even acknowledging it is something significant for him. even now, so long as others around him are suffering... he'll look to take care of them first]
[ she offers him a sad smile. it's not that hard to cry, she thinks, but maybe he doesn't have that luxury. even if yona is dead, and jeanne is dying tomorrow. ]
Boy, I don't envy kings.
[ always thinking of others, unable to be both self-centered and dutiful at the same time. a pillar upon which so much stands. she can't empathize—taking care of the people here is already so much. ]
My brother has that kind of responsibility... Claude too. [ ... ] If you don't know how to show it, I guess I have to get better at noticing when you're sad.
[ . . . . . . there is the briefest, slightest pause, before he repeats:]
.... kings? I suppose... they would have to be rather used to working under pressure...?
[is that what she means? there is a sincere confusion in his eyes
(and maybe that's the funniest thing about soo-won. the way that he composes and carries himself originates not from regal bearing, and it does not come because of his rank. rather, it is the type of person he is - that he has always been. to put others before himself, to cherish them before he thinks of his own needs.
being a king was truly just incidental.)]
.... but ah - I don't mean to give you more responsibilities when you do not seek them, Hilda....
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...I like Jeanne. [ she even covered for them today. ] So I'm sick and also sad.
[ it's great! ]
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instead he just looks down at the tea and has a sip.]
.... I've known for about a week. When I said to trust me... it was because I knew she would lead us all to her. Taako took care of the accusations for me, even if he didn't want to.
When we discovered Shigeo, I thought we might be able to search for a killer that wasn't any of us but... even if we found them, I don't know if they would be as willing to give themselves up as Jeanne.
[no, they - probably wouldn't.
not with how easy jeanne brought the accusation upon herself]
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Yeah, I... realized pretty quickly.
[ judging from the trial, she thinks a lot of people knew; it feels like everyone converged on the same answer. whether they learned it ahead of time, or simply went with the crowd—jeanne unified them. ]
Whoever killed Shigeo... they probably couldn't confess either. And I don't think anyone had the heart to find them, anyway.
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[he's still wondering if the two cases are related - what could cause someone's memory to be tampered so extremely that way? splintering again?]
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I couldn't confess today, to Yona. [ and she didn't technically land the killing blow ] So it wouldn't surprise me if that was the case...
[ was it really splintering? was hikaru's case worse than mob's? the symptoms present themselves differently enough between individuals that it's so hard to say. ]
Someone has to know what's happening.
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She might not be able to tell you anything... but when you speak to Rabbit tomorrow, once your icon blinks.... ask if there is anything you can do to learn about the 'Pawn'.
It appears to be stumping those with roles and abilities. I'm looking now too.... but I'm not sure what to make of it.
Hikaru definitively wasn't splintering... but I'm afraid that now I'll have to inquire whether Shigeo was.
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Okay... I'll ask her. She said she didn't notice anything with Mob, though—even when I brought up Hikaru, she didn't seem to know if he was a related case. [ maybe she'll know more now that trial's over. ] We'll have to have everyone ask their leaders about it.
You've met all the other roles, right?
[ she doesn't know them, or Pawn, but she'll ask. ]
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No.... I'm only familiar with the fact that they are gathering, and lucky that they entrust information to me every now and then.
I do not know if finding this Pawn is the key to solving more of our mysteries or generating nova... but it is an outstanding problem that we're hoping to resolve.
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[ one mystery of many, but they'll have to solve what they can. she doesn't sound energetic about it—though no one has much spirit left. ]
Tomorrow... we'll deal with it then. If we all feel better, anyway.
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.... Rest tonight.
And what you can of tomorrow morning, too. A long, luxurious soak in the bath.... and if I'm feeling well enough, I'll bring you breakfast and tea in the morning.
If I am late, we will make it brunch.
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That sounds great.
[ she doubts it'll happen. ]
...You know you don't have to push yourself around me, right? I think we've both seen each other at our worst.
[ she's not going to pressure him to bear his heart, but he doesn't have to hide it from her, either. he can relax and be tired, sad—whatever. ]
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.... I must have been dealt quite a hand - for all of you to be assuring me of the same thing this weekend.
[that he doesn't have to push himself, and that it's alright if he's not okay]
.... I am saddened. I believe it would be disingenuous to suggest that I am not, given all that we've lost.
[even... all that he's lost, specifically]
But I'm afraid that I'm unsure how to admit to more than that.
[he won't cry or scream or yell to show his displeasure - even acknowledging it is something significant for him. even now, so long as others around him are suffering... he'll look to take care of them first]
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Boy, I don't envy kings.
[ always thinking of others, unable to be both self-centered and dutiful at the same time. a pillar upon which so much stands. she can't empathize—taking care of the people here is already so much. ]
My brother has that kind of responsibility... Claude too. [ ... ] If you don't know how to show it, I guess I have to get better at noticing when you're sad.
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.... kings? I suppose... they would have to be rather used to working under pressure...?
[is that what she means? there is a sincere confusion in his eyes
(and maybe that's the funniest thing about soo-won. the way that he composes and carries himself originates not from regal bearing, and it does not come because of his rank. rather, it is the type of person he is - that he has always been. to put others before himself, to cherish them before he thinks of his own needs.
being a king was truly just incidental.)]
.... but ah - I don't mean to give you more responsibilities when you do not seek them, Hilda....