[the apologetic smile gets a more certain one in return - he doesn't mind. he understands it, really. he just wanted to confirm and let her know that she doesn't have to talk around him.
but.]
.... Shiro told me that according to a Leader, in order for everyone on one team to be revived, that team needs to orchestrate at least two murders. When we met... he had quite a bit of coffee and while I don't want to blame his erratic behavior on that -
I do think that he was intending to attack Emet-Selch with a sense of purpose as a result of the information that he heard. Perhaps he thought that Emet-Selch was going to harm someone, or if we all thought that his nova was splintering then we'd remove Emet-Selch anyway.
.... I'm fracturing my word to a Leader by sharing this. But I do trust you, and I believe it's already beginning to spread. So I hope.... you understand why I don't want it to become common knowledge.
[ for them to share and trust so much with each other directly—it makes her nervous, being handed something so important like she can do anything good with this knowledge, but she has to try. she likes won enough to... try. ]
Ugh, seriously?
[ she presses her cheek into her palm, sighing. what an unpleasant stipulation. ]
Don't worry, I'll keep it to myself. Things could get really messy if people decide to take things into their own hands.
[ even though they're already doing that, but she trusts the two of them to be thoughtful about it. ] But that probably means none of the teams are safe so far. [ or at most, like one is. ]
It depends on what happened this past weekend - Emet-Selch hasn't trusted me with his team, which makes it impossible to verify unless someone else has been keeping track of the teams as closely as we have. Worse comes to worst... I may need to ask next week, when it'll be harder to identify his team.
[if there are four murders and they're all from different teams then it'll be harder to suspect which one emet-selch was on, right?? though his hope is that he can talk a leader into telling him anyway.]
My current guess is that perhaps the task of handling the nova splintering will be spread amongst the different teams. So that means we need to wait for Goat's turn, or.... there is a chance someone on Rabbit might need to act again.
[at least, between the two of them, that's what they've figured out]
It sounds like Swan hasn't been able to recall anything at all, which puts them in danger.
I have a guess about Emet-Selch's team... but PHSs not blinking definitely makes it more difficult to tell what happened. And I doubt Sumire's killer is going to speak up to anyone after trial got so messy.
[ but she nods along in general. ]
It does seem like the leader that detects the splintering changes every week, assuming that's what happened this weekend. [ her expression folds a little, her fingers drumming against her teacup. goat's turn could come up, and soo-won's murder would help them hit the second body they need. but for rabbit? ...this is all so grisly. ]
If I'm thinking this through right... [ seven victims between five teams. ] If Swan hasn't regained any memories, then one team is already safe. Maybe two, since we don't know which team Virid was on.
I'll have to talk to Rabbit, but if it's not either of our teams, then it's Wolf, Fox, or Tiger.
Unless Virid was on Tiger's team... they hadn't had a single kill until - possibly this weekend. [but that remains unconfirmed] But... perhaps it might be Wolf or Fox. We'll need to see if Rabbit learned anything.
At the very least... there are more teams that we will need to look after. While I think that... if I'm careful about the information, I may be able to tell some who might be willing to help us reach the threshold...
I would like to verify first what numbers are needed in order to make it so.
[ . . . ]
And given that Rabbit's turn for nova splintering has already passed.... Let me know, if you need anything from me.
[soo-won will honest to god cover for like. any murder that he doesn't feel like pursuing, apparently.]
Yeah... it's possible both kills this weekend were Tiger's team, but we'll have to check. Let me ask Rabbit and get back to you.
[ as soon as she says it though, she groans a little. ]
I really doubt it though. Do you know any other rabbits? Because, um— [ she makes a face. ] Rabbit even said she picked me because the others were more likely to fail.
... No, I'm sorry. I think that people were slower to share their teams, given the disruption with the Realm, but in general no one else has confessed being part of Rabbit's team to me. Though... if anyone does -
Do you want me to point them in your direction? It wouldn't count against either of you...
[he nods in agreement with that - he doesn't mind helping gather the rabbits if it'll make life easier for hilda.
but.]
... should you choose to take action, you know that I won't let you face it alone.
[because the facts of the matter are - well, simple. he doesn't care so much about nova generation that he'll let people catch hilda without issue. not when ultimately, if she does choose to kill someone, it will be in order to save her team.
but - ]
.... I'm not sure if I'm willing to wait for that to happen, regarding Goat's team. My hope is that he'll have his turn soon in noticing the nova splintering... but if he doesn't, or it's instead proven that it's random and will go to the same Leader again -
I'm afraid my life and my ability to return is not something I can take a chance on. [he tilts his head] My life arguably has no more worth than any other.... but I cannot abandon my kingdom.
[and for that, he'll get his hands dirty time and time again. that is the responsibility of a king.]
[ heavy is the head that wears the crown, huh? she feels for him—to live not for himself, but for the fate of his entire country—because it can't be an easy thing. because he is a kind man, no matter what he's driven to do. ]
...I don't envy you, Won. I couldn't carry the weight of that responsibility.
[ she doesn't even want to consider that she'll have to kill again, though she's growing resigned to the idea. ]
But I guess there's no helping how this is turning out, huh? I'm not ready to die for anyone here—so I'll be there for you, too. [ it makes sense for them to go into this together, they can cover for each other. and it's not about camaraderie. she has to remind herself of that a lot, recently—she won't die for her friends. she won't. and she doesn't expect anyone to do the same for her. ] It's silly to try and weigh lives anyway. No one here deserves to die more than anyone else. If you ask me, some people just have to make tougher calls than others.
[ she had to make a decision, and there's nothing in her smile now that falters—she isn't so weak-willed as to regret what she's done. and she'll be there for him through thick or thin, even through those ugly choices. ]
.... I don't know how I feel about the idea of dying for anyone. Maybe I don't know what I would do until the moment appeared in front of me... but instead of declaring that you'd die for someone - wouldn't you rather hear that they'd live alongside you instead?
[is it truly a big compliment, to hear from someone that they think that their life is more expendable than yours? he'd thought about it, since the trial over the weekend and the decision that chiron made. is that something admirable?
he doesn't think so.
but perhaps that is the feelings of someone who has always been left behind, who does not find death glamorous or inviting.]
But - regardless, we are in agreement. Rather than inviting any misfortune with death pacts....
I hope to live with you to the end of all this, Hilda, and beyond. Whatever that may take.
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Uh-oh, that sounds serious.
[ she has an idea what this is about, but maybe she was hoping someone else would deal with it. ]
Okay... go ahead.
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but.]
.... Shiro told me that according to a Leader, in order for everyone on one team to be revived, that team needs to orchestrate at least two murders. When we met... he had quite a bit of coffee and while I don't want to blame his erratic behavior on that -
I do think that he was intending to attack Emet-Selch with a sense of purpose as a result of the information that he heard. Perhaps he thought that Emet-Selch was going to harm someone, or if we all thought that his nova was splintering then we'd remove Emet-Selch anyway.
.... I'm fracturing my word to a Leader by sharing this. But I do trust you, and I believe it's already beginning to spread. So I hope.... you understand why I don't want it to become common knowledge.
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Ugh, seriously?
[ she presses her cheek into her palm, sighing. what an unpleasant stipulation. ]
Don't worry, I'll keep it to myself. Things could get really messy if people decide to take things into their own hands.
[ even though they're already doing that, but she trusts the two of them to be thoughtful about it. ] But that probably means none of the teams are safe so far. [ or at most, like one is. ]
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[if there are four murders and they're all from different teams then it'll be harder to suspect which one emet-selch was on, right?? though his hope is that he can talk a leader into telling him anyway.]
My current guess is that perhaps the task of handling the nova splintering will be spread amongst the different teams. So that means we need to wait for Goat's turn, or.... there is a chance someone on Rabbit might need to act again.
[at least, between the two of them, that's what they've figured out]
It sounds like Swan hasn't been able to recall anything at all, which puts them in danger.
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[ but she nods along in general. ]
It does seem like the leader that detects the splintering changes every week, assuming that's what happened this weekend. [ her expression folds a little, her fingers drumming against her teacup. goat's turn could come up, and soo-won's murder would help them hit the second body they need. but for rabbit? ...this is all so grisly. ]
If I'm thinking this through right... [ seven victims between five teams. ] If Swan hasn't regained any memories, then one team is already safe. Maybe two, since we don't know which team Virid was on.
I'll have to talk to Rabbit, but if it's not either of our teams, then it's Wolf, Fox, or Tiger.
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Unless Virid was on Tiger's team... they hadn't had a single kill until - possibly this weekend. [but that remains unconfirmed] But... perhaps it might be Wolf or Fox. We'll need to see if Rabbit learned anything.
At the very least... there are more teams that we will need to look after. While I think that... if I'm careful about the information, I may be able to tell some who might be willing to help us reach the threshold...
I would like to verify first what numbers are needed in order to make it so.
[ . . . ]
And given that Rabbit's turn for nova splintering has already passed.... Let me know, if you need anything from me.
[soo-won will honest to god cover for like. any murder that he doesn't feel like pursuing, apparently.]
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[ as soon as she says it though, she groans a little. ]
I really doubt it though. Do you know any other rabbits? Because, um— [ she makes a face. ] Rabbit even said she picked me because the others were more likely to fail.
[ if that says anything about team rabbit. ]
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soo-won slowly blinks at that.]
... No, I'm sorry. I think that people were slower to share their teams, given the disruption with the Realm, but in general no one else has confessed being part of Rabbit's team to me. Though... if anyone does -
Do you want me to point them in your direction? It wouldn't count against either of you...
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[ at least they can play information telephone, as usual. ]
...From what I've seen, if we need a second kill, it'll almost certainly have to come from me. But who knows, maybe someone will surprise me.
[ with soo-won, she'll just conclude as much flat-out. they're already in the trenches together, and she'd been genuine before—she trusts him. ]
Hopefully another poor sap on Goat's team will take the heat off of you, though.
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but.]
... should you choose to take action, you know that I won't let you face it alone.
[because the facts of the matter are - well, simple. he doesn't care so much about nova generation that he'll let people catch hilda without issue. not when ultimately, if she does choose to kill someone, it will be in order to save her team.
but - ]
.... I'm not sure if I'm willing to wait for that to happen, regarding Goat's team. My hope is that he'll have his turn soon in noticing the nova splintering... but if he doesn't, or it's instead proven that it's random and will go to the same Leader again -
I'm afraid my life and my ability to return is not something I can take a chance on. [he tilts his head] My life arguably has no more worth than any other.... but I cannot abandon my kingdom.
[and for that, he'll get his hands dirty time and time again. that is the responsibility of a king.]
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...I don't envy you, Won. I couldn't carry the weight of that responsibility.
[ she doesn't even want to consider that she'll have to kill again, though she's growing resigned to the idea. ]
But I guess there's no helping how this is turning out, huh? I'm not ready to die for anyone here—so I'll be there for you, too. [ it makes sense for them to go into this together, they can cover for each other. and it's not about camaraderie. she has to remind herself of that a lot, recently—she won't die for her friends. she won't. and she doesn't expect anyone to do the same for her. ] It's silly to try and weigh lives anyway. No one here deserves to die more than anyone else. If you ask me, some people just have to make tougher calls than others.
[ she had to make a decision, and there's nothing in her smile now that falters—she isn't so weak-willed as to regret what she's done. and she'll be there for him through thick or thin, even through those ugly choices. ]
And I'll support you, no matter what you choose.
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[is it truly a big compliment, to hear from someone that they think that their life is more expendable than yours? he'd thought about it, since the trial over the weekend and the decision that chiron made. is that something admirable?
he doesn't think so.
but perhaps that is the feelings of someone who has always been left behind, who does not find death glamorous or inviting.]
But - regardless, we are in agreement. Rather than inviting any misfortune with death pacts....
I hope to live with you to the end of all this, Hilda, and beyond. Whatever that may take.