soo-won's always known this. since the days that he lost his father, his mother - even when he was so young, people looked to him. he could not afford to lose himself in grief or sadness, not when the future of the county was resting on his shoulders.
he thinks it's a good thing.
that zuko did not have to learn compartmentalization to the extent that soo-won did.
even now, the effects on his ability to regulate his emotions are painfully obvious.]
.... people don't always know what to say to me.
And perhaps I don't always know what to say that will be enough to appease others.
[even now - he thinks his answers aren't quite enough for zuko.]
[ zuko understands his duties and the reality of wars and the situation we're in... but honestly, he could never do what soo-won does. it always gives him such a strange feeling, to see him and hilda joking around casually like nothing happened. ]
[ he thinks he can understand why, maybe even a little of the how. but zuko can't ever do that. ]
[ maybe that means he'd be a bad fire lord. but he already knew that. ]
I don't want to be appeased. And I don't think there's anything I could say to you that would make this better, or more... right, or acceptable... or whatever.
If that's all it is, we don't have to talk about it.
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soo-won's always known this. since the days that he lost his father, his mother - even when he was so young, people looked to him. he could not afford to lose himself in grief or sadness, not when the future of the county was resting on his shoulders.
he thinks it's a good thing.
that zuko did not have to learn compartmentalization to the extent that soo-won did.
even now, the effects on his ability to regulate his emotions are painfully obvious.]
.... people don't always know what to say to me.
And perhaps I don't always know what to say that will be enough to appease others.
[even now - he thinks his answers aren't quite enough for zuko.]
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[ he thinks he can understand why, maybe even a little of the how. but zuko can't ever do that. ]
[ maybe that means he'd be a bad fire lord. but he already knew that. ]
I don't want to be appeased. And I don't think there's anything I could say to you that would make this better, or more... right, or acceptable... or whatever.
If that's all it is, we don't have to talk about it.