[ . . . . . there's going to be an odd sense for emet-selch at that, the one where soo-won seems like he wants to say something, finds himself pausing, reflecting on his own uncertainty as an anomaly, but.
what comes out of his mouth is:]
I like learning, and I like people.
[he seems tempted to leave it at that and yet.]
... and I like seeing to it that people can live lives unhampered by too many circumstances outside of their control. There are things like natural disasters that you'd mentioned, or the ways in which people hurt each other everyday. That's a matter of living.
But I also think that inadequacy of leadership and government can contribute to the ways that people suffer. And I... don't believe that I should accept that.
It doesn't matter to me because I'm a noble - it matters to me because I love my country, and I'm coming to care for the people here in the same way. I want to aid them, however it is that I can.
[and that seems sincere - the combination of two strong feelings. a unhindered and shameless adoration for the world and all that inhabit it - and the belief that if he has the power to act and learn, then he should]
[that is definitely an odd feeling; he frowns slightly at it, but doesn't comment at first, allowing soo-won to go ahead and explain. and as he does, he might get a very faint sense of approval, though it's accompanied by a stronger sense of disillusionment.]
...well, within particular periods of time, the possibility does exist. It may be that in your era, your country may be changed for the better-- I would say such desires, along with the recognition of the specific flaws within your leadership, make for a good start.
[he just... doesn't necessarily think it will last. that it will matter in the end.
[the thing is - soo-won doesn't seem to mind the disillusionment. that too comes with a sense of understanding.]
As long as it changes for the better in a way that I can help it - that's enough. I don't have your lifespan, so I have to make peace with what I can do with the time that I do have. And I intend on making the most of every moment.
[and with that comes a sense of conviction. he's not the type of person who thinks that he's going to build a civilization that lasts forever. but it just needs to last long enough to matter for the people he wants to save. to decrease the suffering in the world even just a bit.
Maybe it will. At the very least, I believe in it strongly enough that I can't allow myself to rest or give up until I have a chance to complete it.
[and this... he sounds certain over. emet-selch will be able to feel that much, the sense of conviction. as if this is the only thing that soo-won ever truly holds onto with an unflinching grasp.
he has something that he needs to accomplish.]
Now you make me wonder about the peculiarity.... I have been feeling a bit oddly today - but I wouldn't put it on par with illness. Rather, I find myself speaking... a bit freely.
[-that much, they are in agreement on. however much the world may tire him, whatever else may happen... there are things that simply cannot be abandoned.
but there are other things to be concerned with for the moment.]
That would make some sense, then. You felt a bit strangely, just before you spoke.
[he's examining him a bit, now, as if there would be any outward sign.]
[there's a bit of a laugh at that - a note of amusement, as if entertained that emet-selch cared to notice]
Mm. It's because I normally don't tend toward talking about myself, which I think got me into a bit of trouble with some people who cared very much about my well-being over the weekend.
So I think I've been enchanted to have my behavior changed.
[though despite his smile -
it's not quite anger and it's not even quite disgruntlement. but there is an odd, tense feeling of being restrained, a recognition that this wasn't done with his own free will]
It is fortunate that you are able to notice, rather than a form of enchantment in which one remains oblivious to its effects... though each has their particular frustrations, I'm sure.
[is it more difficult to know something seems off, or to be unaware until you realize it after the fact... the answer varies, probably.
but his brow furrows slightly, with a feeling of contemplation, consideration.]
I have heard the effects of some few objects that may work upon others, but none that I know match what you have described.
Not to worry, I'm the type of person who can notice these things about myself. But I'm afraid it doesn't stop me from sharing what I find relevant regardless.
[it means he can try to be careful but at the same time, he... really can't! there's a few notes of frustration, but they're idle and harmless, kind of like bubbles that disappear quickly]
I'm monitoring it to see how long it lasts... but if the duration continues, it makes me wonder if it might be a power used on me by a Leader.
The Leaders definitely have powers, and they can definitely use them on people - but I'm not sure how much it's to the extent of using them on people from other teams. If it's well-meaning then....
[he'll make a general wave of his hand]
I don't think this was done to infringe on my privacy specifically - but probably because people think I'd benefit from sharing information about myself.
You could always request to have your leader use one on you and see how it works out?
[but soo-won just looks a little amused at that]
Mm, it's a bit irksome... but ultimately nothing that I can't handle. I don't offer information about myself all that readily, but I also don't think it worth mentioning in most situations.
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what comes out of his mouth is:]
I like learning, and I like people.
[he seems tempted to leave it at that and yet.]
... and I like seeing to it that people can live lives unhampered by too many circumstances outside of their control. There are things like natural disasters that you'd mentioned, or the ways in which people hurt each other everyday. That's a matter of living.
But I also think that inadequacy of leadership and government can contribute to the ways that people suffer. And I... don't believe that I should accept that.
It doesn't matter to me because I'm a noble - it matters to me because I love my country, and I'm coming to care for the people here in the same way. I want to aid them, however it is that I can.
[and that seems sincere - the combination of two strong feelings. a unhindered and shameless adoration for the world and all that inhabit it - and the belief that if he has the power to act and learn, then he should]
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...well, within particular periods of time, the possibility does exist. It may be that in your era, your country may be changed for the better-- I would say such desires, along with the recognition of the specific flaws within your leadership, make for a good start.
[he just... doesn't necessarily think it will last. that it will matter in the end.
going back to that initial feeling, though-]
Are you quite well, by the way?
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As long as it changes for the better in a way that I can help it - that's enough. I don't have your lifespan, so I have to make peace with what I can do with the time that I do have. And I intend on making the most of every moment.
[and with that comes a sense of conviction. he's not the type of person who thinks that he's going to build a civilization that lasts forever. but it just needs to last long enough to matter for the people he wants to save. to decrease the suffering in the world even just a bit.
but - ]
Ah, well in what sense? I am resting.
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[this is, after all, the only time he's ever felt soo-won's feelings; he just waves a hand.]
In any case, mayhap that intention will end up making some difference, should we all manage to quit this place safely.
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[and this... he sounds certain over. emet-selch will be able to feel that much, the sense of conviction. as if this is the only thing that soo-won ever truly holds onto with an unflinching grasp.
he has something that he needs to accomplish.]
Now you make me wonder about the peculiarity.... I have been feeling a bit oddly today - but I wouldn't put it on par with illness. Rather, I find myself speaking... a bit freely.
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but there are other things to be concerned with for the moment.]
That would make some sense, then. You felt a bit strangely, just before you spoke.
[he's examining him a bit, now, as if there would be any outward sign.]
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Mm. It's because I normally don't tend toward talking about myself, which I think got me into a bit of trouble with some people who cared very much about my well-being over the weekend.
So I think I've been enchanted to have my behavior changed.
[though despite his smile -
it's not quite anger and it's not even quite disgruntlement. but there is an odd, tense feeling of being restrained, a recognition that this wasn't done with his own free will]
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[is it more difficult to know something seems off, or to be unaware until you realize it after the fact... the answer varies, probably.
but his brow furrows slightly, with a feeling of contemplation, consideration.]
I have heard the effects of some few objects that may work upon others, but none that I know match what you have described.
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Not to worry, I'm the type of person who can notice these things about myself. But I'm afraid it doesn't stop me from sharing what I find relevant regardless.
[it means he can try to be careful but at the same time, he... really can't! there's a few notes of frustration, but they're idle and harmless, kind of like bubbles that disappear quickly]
I'm monitoring it to see how long it lasts... but if the duration continues, it makes me wonder if it might be a power used on me by a Leader.
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[but he's definitely thinking about it now? that could be- problematic.]
But if it were, some of them do seem as if they might be... more susceptible to pleas, perhaps.
[such as those from people who care very much about someone's well-being.]
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[he'll make a general wave of his hand]
I don't think this was done to infringe on my privacy specifically - but probably because people think I'd benefit from sharing information about myself.
Which.... I disagree, but....
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[hm. something to bother them more about later, probably.]
I certainly can't fault you for disagreeing, though, whether well-intentioned or not. I would not take it lightly myself.
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[but soo-won just looks a little amused at that]
Mm, it's a bit irksome... but ultimately nothing that I can't handle. I don't offer information about myself all that readily, but I also don't think it worth mentioning in most situations.